A weird occurance while Motionless

Last night during my motionlessness exercise I experienced something that I didn't experience during these exercises before. It was as if I was trying to astral project. All the sensations that I have previously experienced while try to project I felt last night. It was if my spirit was trying to vibrate out of my body. The only thing that I felt was holding it back was the intense pressure I was feeling in my third eye area. If I didn't know better, I would have believed that someone was pressing down hard on my forehead with their finger. I was in a state of complete awareness of my body so I could feel no physical tension in my forehead, or complete head for that matter, that might have been misleading me into thinking this pressure was from my third eye area. After the initial confusion I felt from the onslaught of this sensation, I just relaxed more and went with the flow. I experienced feelings of floating free from my physical body but I was always grounded by my third eye. When I started to focus exclusively on just this area I began to see I bright light even though my eyes were closed and I was in a dimly lit room.

After what seemed like a few minutes turned out to be 30 minutes when I finally opened my eyes and moved my body. I was ecstatic at the length of time I remained motionless since the prior night I only managed 11 minutes. I'm still baffled at what caused all the sensation and why my third eye felt the way it did. I will have to look further into it, especially if it occurs during tonights exercise. I wonder if it has anything to do with my chakras. I'll have to do some research since I don't know anything about them!

Practicing Liber MMM

As things go, it hasn't been until today that I had a chance to begin the exercises in Liber MMM. I knew that if I didn't start soon I would be doing mis-service and so to to kick it all off I went and bought a nice journal to keep track of it all!

The first exercise is Motionlessness, so I got myself all ready by making sure my chronograph on my wrist watch worked and arranging myself in a comfortable position. I was laying on my bed with my shoes off, started the timer and stopped moving. It was a little harder than I expected. It was swallowing spit that did me in at the end! If I hadn't done that I'm guessing I could have gone longer. I lasted 5:30 minutes so I was happy with those results, especially since I was right out the gate.

I did notice that when my mind wandered it distracted me for all my discomforts but I wanted to focus on how my body was feeling so I kept the wandering to a minimum. In future exercises I will need to keep it focused so I might as well start now. Once I hit 15 minutes laying down without moving I will progress to sitting and then standing before moving on to more 'advanced' exercises. I must say that the next exercise listed is Breath Control, I might try that in conjunction with Motionlessness.

Liber MMM

In Peter Carroll's Liber Null & Psychonaut there is a section called Liber MMM. It is touted as a pre-requisite course for entrance into the Illuminates of Thanateros, an organization that I currently don't have a desire to join. However, it is a course that I feel would be extremely beneficial to me in many aspects of my life, not just magically; and so I begin studying and practicing.

Again I find that a lot of the exercises require time and again I know that my schedule can be tight at times. It looks like to make any headway and progress in magic I will have to be more dedicated and make time to practice.

It has been awhile since I read Liber MMM so I've been re-reading it today and have noticed that a lot of the exercises are very similar with other exercises in other magical courses of study. It reaffirms the usefulness it will be in my life.