A Demon talking through the tarot?

Ever since I started getting interested in Demonolatry, every time I do a tarot reading for myself the cards tell me that there is a 'spiritual advisor' or 'advisor' who can help me grow spiritually and creatively. Admittedly, I've only done two personal readings in the last 2 weeks but it has been enough to get me wondering who or what the cards are talking about.

Last night while I was meditating, I was visualizing that I was floating aimlessly in the black void. It wasn't long before I 'saw' a black figure. This figure didn't seem to be of my own creation but I was more concerned at the time that I could even see a black figure on a black background. This figure was gesturing for me to follow it, so I did. It 'flew' off so I followed it but eventually it just faded and disappeared. I was a little weirded out by it. Hopefully I can get more answers soon.

I feel like there is an entity that is trying to contact me, I don't know if this is an external or internal entity, but I'm not making much out of it at the moment. I'm trying to be receptive and open-minded but I'm not jumping to conclusions. I'm not going to be so egotistical to say that there is a Demon who has taken an interest in me and is trying to make contact but I'm going to be a little egotistical and not rule it out!

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Like minded bloggers

I've been looking for a few like minded bloggers lately but I think I must not be looking in the right places. I'm not able to find anyone, or rather anyone that is active. When I say 'like minded bloggers', I'm not being picky, I'm not just looking for theistic satanists or demonolaters. I'd like to get in touch with anyone who blogs about the darker side of magic/the occult.

If you are a such a person, please leave a comment letting me know you are here. If you are not such a person but know where I could find someone, the please leave a comment letting me know where to point my browser. I'd really like to get more blogs on my blog roll and maybe ever get this blog on a few blog rolls.

As you can see on the right of this post (you might have to scroll a bit!) that I only have three blogs, at the moment, on my blog roll.

Jeremism is just one of my other blogs that I use to go on about stuff not relevant to this one. It isn't all that active, and is more me just ranting.

OFS Demonolatry is the only blog I could find concerning Demonolatry out there. I must not be looking very hard because I'm sure it isn't the only one.

Theistic Satanism, a blog by Diane Vera, is just one out there about theistic satanism but the others have more leanings towards religious freedoms than satanism. That doesn't mean that I'm not interested in them, I just prefer 'Theistic Satanism'.

I'd love to have more on my blog roll, so like I said above, please comment and tell me where I can find more blogs.

My book wishlist

I thought I'd compile a list of the books that I want to buy, mainly on the subjects of Demonolatry and Satanism. I'd like to buy at least one book every payday so I can expand my library and learn more than I can online. If you have any comments on my list, please don't hesitate to post them. If you really think I should move a book up my list or drop it completely, then I want to hear from you.

I've recently been acquainted with http://www.lulu.com/ and have found a lot of books that I can't find on Amazon.com, however, the books that I can find on amazon tend to be cheaper and will ship immediately. I guess I should mention that lulu.com is a POD, or print of demand. If you don't know what that means, POD's don't keep stock of the books they have but rather print off a copy when it is needed. That is my understanding at least.

Anyway, here is the list:

The Complete Book of Demonolatry by S. Connolly

I've already purchased this off of lulu and it is being shipped at the moment. I'm excited to receive it since it is supposed to have all the information someone new, like me, needs to know about Demonolatry. I've actually searched for other books on Demonolatry and I can't find anything that is more complete that this title. I guess in this case the title says it all! The stats say it has over 402 pages and weighs in at 1.2 lbs. so it is hefty enough for me to believe that it is chock full of goodies. Its average rating is 5/5 on Amazon and 6/7 on lulu.

Hexagradior - The Bible of Magic by Nemo

This book says that it explains the essence of magic, how some magic works and other magic doesn't. That sounds like a lofty claim but after looking through some of the reviews on amazon (it's rated 4.5/5) my curiosity has been aroused.

Demonolatry Rites by S. Connolly

Another title from S. Connolly, this time giving more Demonolatry rites. I'm interested in reading this so I can have a broader collection of rites so when I'm ready I can work up my own. This book only has 106 pages but it says it has 20 rites and is nicely priced.

Goetic Demonolatry by Ellen Purswell

I own a copy of the Goetia and I've always been intrigued; this seems to be the next step in learning how to work with the Goetic demons. This is a small book but it has a nice and small price tag too.

Sanctus Quattuordecim by M. Delaney

The description says it is as much as book on sigil magic and it is on demon magic. The chaote in my is very excited about that. This book seems to delve a little into generational demonolatry since it says that the sigils in the book were received 150 years ago by the authors family. Another small book for a small price.

Luciferian Witchcraft by Michael Ford

The product description says that it is a 'complete grimoire of Left Hand Path initiation'. That grabbed my attention right there. It has gotten 4.5/5 from 15 reviews. I've heard a few things about the author and so I wanted to check out at least one of his titles. I went with the best reviewed and biggest: this book has 504 pages and comes it at 2.5 lbs. I hope size counts in this case.

Grimorium Verum by Joseph H. Peterson

'Grimorium Verum is one of the most notorious handbooks of black magic', with an introduction like that how can I not want to buy it. I've not actually read a lot on this title as I have on others so I'm not that excited about it at the moment. Maybe once it moves up my list I might decide more on whether to buy it or to drop it. Any feedback would be appreciated!

That is my list so far. I'm sure I have missed a lot of titles that I should look into, but once some books start coming in I'm sure I'll be checking out their bibliographies for more books to read.

Like I said at the beginning of this post, if you have any comments on this list, positive or negative, please let me know. I'd like to save some money by not buying something not worth it.

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Oh my Satan!

Since when did the Abrahamic god change its name from Yahweh/Jehovah to 'god'? And why does it get to claim exclusive use of the word 'god' as its name? Wondering what I'm talking about? Here are some phrases you might have used yourself or heard others use:

- Thank god
- God willing
- Well holy god
- God damn it

In the society I'm living in, each and everyone of those phrases is taken to mean that the god in question is the Abrahamic god and not another deity. To make sure the English language hasn't evolved its meaning of the word god, I turned to the American Heritage Dictionary (or at least the dictionary.com version) and this is what I found:

god
n.
- A being of supernatural powers or attributes, believed in and worshiped
by a people, especially a male deity thought to control some part of nature or
reality.

Nope, the meaning hasn't changed, so why does society at large pretend it has? Ethnocentrism? I don't know, but I think maybe.

The crown jewel of this argument that the Abrahamic god (or maybe just its followers) changed its name: Oh my god.

To many Abrahamic people this amounts to nothing less than blasphemy in their religion. They use a book from their bible to prove this point of theirs:

Deuteronomy 5:11 You shall not make wrongful use of the name of the Lord your
God, for the Lord will not acquit anyone who misuses his name.

Since the Abrahamic god's name is Yahweh/Jehovah, I don't see why 'oh my god' makes wrongful use of their gods name; unless it, or they, changed its name.

My point to all this: I'm taking back the word 'god', I'm not going to allow the followers of Yahweh/Jehovah to have exclusive use of it, I'm starting a revolution! Ok, scratch the last one.

Being a Theistic Satanist, I worship Satan as my god. He is not my only god but that doesn't matter in this case. When I say "oh my god" I'm referring to Satan. When I say "God watch over me", I'm beseeching Satan to protect me. My god is Satan - not the Abrahamic god, not a Hindu god, or any other god. I get to use the language as it is intended to be used, thank god for that!

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Reputation of Satanism

While browsing through Diane Vera's site, Theistic Satanism, I came across an article called 'Should Satanist care about the reputation of Satanism?'. She highlights some points made by people who disagree, who think that satanist should not care about the reputation of Satanism, or who think satanism is better served by having a bad reputation. She then, quite articulately, refutes those points. (You should really do read the actually article, I'm not even close to doing it justice).

I completely agree with Diane on this issue, an issue that has been on my mind of later since I read this article about satanic vandals striking a church. This defacement of property, which amounts to little more than teen angst, has thrown satanism into the public arena with its only ambassadors being two idiots.

I'm not too up to speed on the rights of Canadian citizens but I'd bet that they do have the right to religious freedom. Regardless of where such hate crimes occur, it makes it difficult for us Satanists who are trying to champion freedom of religion; especially when those who also call themselves satanists are the ones infringing on others freedom of religion.

For those satanist who want to start a religious war, know this: we will loose. War is not won by the amount of hate you have for your enemy but rather by the amount of bullets you have to shoot at you enemy. Very often the same people who leap-frogged the 1st Amendment landed firmly on the 2nd Amendment.

For those satanist who want to keep satanism underground: you can stay underground but I'm not. I'm proud to be a Satanist and I want to talk and practice openly. I'm realistic enough to know that I would suffer negatively if I were to do so and that saddens me and makes me want to change it.

For those satanist who want complete freedom to practice their religion: you are not alone. There is more than just satanists who want to enjoy the same freedoms that the major religions enjoy. It isn't going to be easy but it isn't going to be impossible either. We need to educate society not alienate it.

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What exactly is a Satanist/Demonolater supposed to like like anyway?

Over at Demonolatry Space, there is a group for people who don't look like what people would imagine a Demonolater or Satanist too look like. It has gotten me thinking, since I fit nice and snugly into that category, what exactly is a satanist or demonolater supposed to be like?

I typically wear 'casual wear', as in jeans and t-shirts. During the summer time I can be found in shorts and sandals. I mostly wear light colored shirts. I once owned a black t-shirt that had a baphomet on it, but that got all ink stained when I was working at a printing press many years ago. Now my most exciting black shirt has 'Guinness' written across the chest.

I'm in my mid-twenties, married with kids. I have a mortgage, two cars, two dogs and a trampoline in my backyard. I work diligently at watering my lawn to keep it nice and green. I spent my weekend cleaning out my garage and I work in Law Enforcement.

I do have one tattoo that is covered when I wear any clothing. My left ear is pierced twice; I have to take the rings out when I'm at work; and my nipples are pierced. My hair is classed as 'conservative' by my department and I have a neatly trimmed goatee (some of what you can see from my little picture on the right).

My kids have their friends over to play and have sleepovers. I eat dinner with my in-laws twice a month. I have a gym membership. I spend many hours a week outside jumping on my trampoline. I sew. I'm not artistic in any way or form. I love listening to ABBA and I play disk golf from time to time.

Am I any less a Satanist/Demonolater? No, I'm not. I pray to Satan many times a day, and wear a baphomet under my shirt. I preform some ritual ceremonies a few times a year (not as much as I would like). I believe in magic and practice it. I meditate, practice vampirism and I'm learning the tarot. I do this all while living and looking like an average American guy... fancy that.

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The Mysterious Stranger

I saw this clip and wanted to share. It is snippet from 'The Adventures of Mark Twain', a 1985 claymation film. It is supposed to be an animated adaptation of Mark Twain's unfinished work 'The Mysterious Stranger'



It have very little to do with my belief in Satan, but it fun to watch none the less.

Book Review: The Complete Book of Demonolatry Magic

I recently acquired The Complete Book of Demonolatry Magic by J. Thorp. Apparently it has been taken out of print by the request of the author, so I'm counting myself lucky that I managed to get my hands on a copy. It is a very interesting book and well worth the $17 dollars I paid for it.

Positive: This book is chock full of information and I'm betting that I'll keep coming back to as a source of reference. It has over 28 rituals that cover a wide range, from money to lust, and from legal workings to hexing. The rituals begin by laying out what materials you will need and then give you the method to complete it. The book touches on a vast area of magical subjects including divination, sex magic, cursing, blood magic, sigils. The reference section contains the Enns for calling forth demons along with the corresponding sigils. By far my most favorite section was the one on how to make oleums and incenses, it included a long list of materials needed to make a lot of different oleums and incenses. It has inspired me to learn more.

Neutral: The book, while giving me a lot of information, left me realizing I have a lot of gaps in my knowledge of Demonolatry. This is by far NOT the authors/books fault but more my own for not buying The Complete Book of Demonolaty first. I'm operating on the assumption that most of the reference material in The Complete Book of Demonolatry Magic will be more use to me once I've learned more.

Negative: The author is far from the best writer on occult material. I'm not too fond on her casual tone and I loathes the grammatical mistakes that I noticed. Now I'm far from the best at grammar and my writing leaves a lot to be desired. I guess I expect more from someone who is published.

Despite any negativity I had with this book, I still found it accessible and worthy enough to read it completely in less than 2 days.

I rate it: 7/10

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Categorizing my beliefs

I've been doing some research so I can classify my belief system. I'm a theistic satanist, which you can see from my 'About Me', but since that category is quite broad I thought I would try to get specific. I also mentioned that I am reading and learning a lot more about demonolatry but I don't feel comfortable categorizing myself as a demonolater just yet. I've never worked with demons and I've never felt their presence enough to 'know' that they exist. I have worked with Satan and do 'know' that he exists.

I don't believe that Satan is the only higher consciousness, or deity, in existence. I can't be so egotistical to say that my god is the only god. Other people believe in other gods; if those gods didn't exist before people started to believe in them then they certainly do exist now from all that belief. Since monotheism is belief in only one deity and I believe in, or rather acknowledge, more than one deity then that makes me a Polytheist.

Researching it further it seems that there are more than one kind of polytheism. They're soft polytheism who believe that the gods are aspects of a higher god, then they're hard polytheism that believe the gods are separate beings. I prescribe to the second one which makes me a Hard Polytheist.

Digging deeper, I come to pantheism which is the belief that the physical universe is the equivalent to all the gods in existence; and panentheism which believe the physical universe is joined to the gods but the gods are greater than the universe. I believe in higher realms of existence, such as the astral plane and the mental plane. Since these aren't physical and since I gods exist on these planes then I guess that would make me a Panentheist.

So, in a nutshell, I am a panentheistic hard polytheistic satanist. Once I have made 'contact' with demons then I'll be a panentheistic hard polytheistic demonolater. Ain't that great!

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I'm back

It has been a good few months since I've been on here, in fact I've all but forgotten about this little blog of mine. I'm kind of embarrassed by that. It feels like a validation of my tendency to quit.

Regardless, I'm back!

I've been studying Demonolatry a lot lately and it is speaking to me. I mean really speaking to me. I've found a site called OFS Demonolatry and it has been educational. After doing a few google searches, I can't find anything that matches it in terms of material.

Diane Vera's site about Theistic Satanism has also been a huge resource to me in the last few weeks. There has a lot of satanic philosophy which I've found enlightening and thought provoking.

Since my interest is back, I've bought a tarot deck last week. Namely the Thoth deck. This is my first time working with the tarot and I'm loving it. I can't believe I've not picked up a deck years ago. It is maddening that I've always know about it just choose to ignore it. I've been getting some good insights and I'm picking it easily. I also bought Aleister Crowley's Book of Thoth to go with it but it is a bit to esoteric for me. I'm still glad I bought it though since it goes delve deep in the the symbology of the cards. I ended up buying 'The Tarot Handbook' to get the meanings I've been looking for and I'm happy with it. Other books were suggested to me but the local bookstore didn't carry them and I was impatient.