Update

For anyone interested, this is what I'm up to:

I'm currently reading 'The Egyptian Book of the Dead' by E.A. Wallis Budge, I started with a print out of a PDF that I had but I discovered a hard copy at Barnes and Noble and switched to that. My interested in Kemeticism has been aroused and so I've been doing some research into the subject, I've even been putting some of my other studies on the back burner. Shame on me.

The people over at Kemet.org offer a beginners course on Kemetic Orthodoxy and so I decided to apply for that. I haven't heard back from them yet but then I only applied yesterday.

I'm taking a workshop on Working the Tree that Adrianna from OFS is running. That is making me think all kind of things about the Tree of Life, and Qabalah, that I would probably taken my sweet time in thinking. It is great being forces to think about things that you usually wouldn't. I won't get into it yet but I'll say that I'm having fun with this workshop. I've been using Qabalistic Concepts by William Gray as a guidebook. I really should be reading more of the book but I've only been using it as a source when I've had questions. It got bumped by The Book of the Dead.

On my stack of books to read is Understanding Aleister Crowley's Thoth Tarot by Lon Milo DuQuette and The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need by Joanna Woolfolk. DuQuette is fast becoming one of my most favorite occult writers and to be honest, I need help understanding Crowley. I've dreams of actually knowing more about Tarot, especially the Thoth deck, and being able to read the cards without constantly referring to a book. While I'm dreaming, I also want to be able to read a natal chart without a book too. I've lots of dreams!

The Satan in Satanoltry

The Satan of Satanolatry may not be the Satan you think he is. He is not a red-faced man with a pitchfork, nor is he a conniving little trickster whispering bad things in your ear. In fact, he isn't a man at all nor is he male. I only use 'he' as a convenience in writing the same way I conveniently use proper grammar so that you can conveniently read what I'm writing!

Satanolatry's Satan is everything that is, the whole universe and more, the entire kit and caboodle. He is, what Hermeticists call, The All. Everything you see, everything you know, everyone you know - is Satan.

So, why call him Satan? Why not just call him what he is - The All. We could, it would be valid but it is also valid to use the name Satan. The name Satan denoted an adversarial force and since Satan is the universe what could be more adversarial than that? Our mortal bodies, despite being part of The All, are constantly being one step away from demise. Every force has the potential to kill us, we are at odds with our environment, our lives will only end in death. Yet we fight to live, we have a deep instinct to survive. For our brief moral existence we live, we learn and we succumb to death. The Great Adversary will claim us and if we have learned enough and lived enough then we will have done what we were meant to do - which is to know ourselves.

Just like how muscle tissue breaks down against resistance only to grow back stronger, so does our lives. The Adversary is that resistance, the force that makes that which is truly worth having difficult to attain. Satan is the reminder not to lay down and give up but rather to keep on living and to keep on reaching for our highest goals.

What opposes also encourages. Satan does not beat us into submission with unbeatable odds. The simple fact that we can overcome the challenges we face is encouragement enough to overcome these challenges.

It is by being adversarial that Satan completes his finest creation. He created us in his image, with the capacity to know him and then challenges us to do so.

That is why Satanolatry is the worship of Satan.

Blogger Profiles

Did you know that everything you list in your Blogger profile is a link? Seriously, it is. Go check it out.

Every link in your profile links to other people who listed the same thing you did. Everything from your occupation to location to favorite movies to interests. This can be a great tool to find people who are also interested in the same things you are, live in the same locations, or work in the same jobs.

So, I ask you to think twice about what you list. If you want someone to find you through your listed interests, then please list those interests. Same with location, occupation, and favorite... stuff.

I'm only mentioning this since it is how I find others that share my interests. I'm hoping that people will make it easier for me to find them. If I do find you, I'll at least take the time to read your blog. I might even follow it.

Go on, make me your fan.

Satanolatry

The thought just occurred to me that there is way to much baggage associated with the term 'Satanism'.

On one side there are those people who view Satanism as a bad thing. Their religion (whatever it may be) has a big bad nemesis that they call Satan, or the Devil, who seems to have all these magical powers that he can use to make them do bad things. Anything that has to do with this bad guy is, well... bad. Somehow they have associated the Satan of Satanism to the Satan who hates their god. Shame of them.

On the other hand as they people who follow Satanism - the Satanists. This lot (myself included) comes in such a wide variety that is seems like there are more types of Satanism than they are Satanists. The term has gotten confused with too many adjectives around to better define it - Theistic Satanism, Modern Satanism, LaVeyan Satanism, Spiritual Satanism, Traditional Satanism, etc.

I've grown tired of all this baggage, all these preconceived notions of what Satanism is supposed to mean. So I'm going to make a stand once and for all, and distance myself from all the baggage of Satanism. As of right now I am no longer a Satanist. I now longer follow Satanism (whatever that may be).

From now on I shall be a follower of Satanolatry, a Satanolator if you will.

Google results as of 4/4/09 at 2257 MST - Results 1 - 9 of about 7 for satanolatry

Bingo! I got myself a term that I can make my own. Those 7 other results can just fuck off or conform since I'm about to redefine Satanolatry forever!

Satanolatry
-noun
The religious worship of the deity know as Satan, as defined by Satanolators, who is not the same spirit as mentioned in the Christian and Jewish religious texts.

Satanolator
-noun
A follower of Satanolatry

Ok, when I said forever what I really meant was until myself or the Satanolator community at large defines it properly. Maybe the above definition will work, maybe it won't. This is my in-case-it-doesn't clause!

Come on, lets start a revolution! Post a comment, let me know you are out there...

I'm back... again

Ok, I'm back again.

I think I need blogging. My theory is this - If I don't spew my thoughts and ideas out into the blogosphere and instead keep them all bottled up in my head, I'll explode and take out a whole city, or something.

Actually I've been trying to write and I've discovered that without regular practice I just suck. That doesn't mean that with regular practice that I don't suck but I like to think that I suck less.

My absence from this blog doesn't mean that I was stagnating spiritually, quite the opposite really. I've been delving really deep into Demonolatry in both worship and in demonic magic. On March 21st, during the Rite of Lucifer, I self-initiated myself and became an Demonolator Initiate. Maybe I shouldn't have capitalized that since it really isn't a title but rather just a personal milestone. If I was going to go for a title I'd probably try to pick something that conveyed a certain gravitas without being corny. Super Dark Lord Extraordinaire would be out of the question!

I should really write something worth reading... maybe tomorrow.

Goetic Enn Pronunciation Guide

Just like my Demonic Enn Pronunciation Guide, the square brackets contain the phonetically spelling of how I pronounce the Enns.

I've not heard these Enns spoken aloud by anyone so I went with what I think they should sould like. This guide will be kept updated as I find better pronunciations.

*Goetic Enns were compiled by Valerie Corban and are used here with her permission *

Bael –
Ayer Secore On Ca Ba'al
[Ah-yer she-core on ka Bah-al]

Agares –
Rean ganen ayar da Agares
[Ree-an gah-nen a-ya da Ah-gay-res]

Vassago –
Keyan vefa jedan tasa Vassago
[Keh-yan veh-fa yay-den Vass-ah-go]

Samigina (also Gamigin) –
Esta ta et tasa Gamigin
[Es-tah tah et tah-sa Gam-eh-geh-in]

Marbas –
Renich tasa uberace biasa icar Marbas
[Ren-ich tah-sa ubur-ak-a buy-ass-a ick-r Mar-bas]

Valefor –
Keyman vefa tasa Valefor
[Key-man veh-fa tah-sa Val-ef-r]

Amon –
Avage Secore Amon ninan
[Ah-vah-jay she-core Ah-mun neh-nah-en]

Barbatos –
Eveta fubin Barbatos
[Ev-ee-tah fu-bin Bar-bah-tos]

Paimon –
Linan tasa jedan Paimon
[Lin-an tah-sa yay-den Pay-eh-mon]

Buer –
Erato on ca Buer anon
[Eh-rat-oh on ka Bu-er ah-non]

Gusion –
Secore vesa anet Gusion
[Seh-core veh-sa ah-net Goo-ci-on

Sitri –
Lirach Alora vefa Sitri
{lir-atch all-o-rah veh-fa Sit-ree]

Beleth –
Lirach tasa vefa wehl Beleth
[Lir-atch tah-sa veh-fa Bel-eth]

Leraje (also Leraikha) –
Caymen vefa Leraje
[Kay-men veh-fa Ler-ah-jay]

Eligos –
Jedan on ca Eligos inan
[Yay-den on ka Ee-lig-os eh-nan]

Zepar –
Lyan Ramec catya Zepar
[Lie-an rah-mek kat-yah Zeh-par]

Botis –
Jedan hoesta noc ra Botis
[Yay-den hoe-stah nok ra Boat-is]

Bathin –
Dyen Pretore on ca Bathin
[Deh-yen pree-tor on ka Bath-in]

Sallos (also Saleos) –
Serena Alora Sallos Aken
[Sir-ee-nah all-o-rah Sah-el-os ack-en]

Purson –
Ana jecore on ca Purson
[Ah-na ya-core on ka Pur-son]

Marax (also Narax) –
Kaymen Vefa Marax
[Kay-men veh-fa Mar-ex]

Ipos –
Desa an Ipos Ayer
[Dey-sa an Ip-os ah-yer]

Aim –
Ayer avage secore Aim
[Ah-yer ah-vah-jay seh-core A-im]

Naberius –
Eyan tasa volocur Naberius
[Eh-yan tah-sa vol-o-cur Nah-ber-us]

Glasya-Labolas –
Elan tepar secore on ca Glasya-Lobolas
[E-lan the-par seh-core on ka Glass-ya-Lobo-las]

Bune (also Bime) –
Wehl melan avage Bune Tasa
[Weh-el meh-lan ah-vah-jay Bue-en tah-sa]

Ronove –
Kaymen vefa Ronove
[Kay-men veh-fa Row-no-vee]

Berith –
Hoath redar ganabal Berith
[Hoe-ath re-dar gah-nah-bell Ber-ith]

Astaroth –
Tasa Alora Foren Astaroth
[Tah-sa All-o-rah four-en Ass-tar-oth]

Forneus –
Senan okat ena Forneus ayer
[Sen-an oh-kat eh-na Four-nee-us ah-yer]

Foras –
Kaymen vefa Foras
[Kay-men veh-fa Four-as]

Asmoday –
Ayer avage Aloren Asmoday aken
[Ah-yer ah-vah-jay As-mo-day ack-en]

Gaap –
Deyan Anay Tasa Gaap
[Dey-ahn ah-nay tah-sa Gah-ap]

Furfur –
Ganen menach tasa Furfur
[Gah-nen men-ack tah-sa Four-four]

Marchosias –
Es na ayer Marchosias Secore
[Es na ah-yer Mar-chi-os-ee-as seh-core]

Stolas (also Stolos) –
Stolos Ramec viasa on ca
[Stow-los rah-mek vie-ass-a on ka]

Phenex (also Pheynix) –
Ef enay Phenex ayer
[Ef eh-nay Fen-ex ah-yer]

Halphas –
Erato Halphas on ca secore
[Eh-rat-oh Hal-fas on ka seh-core]

Malphas–
Lirach tasa Malphas ayer
[Lir-atch tah-sa Mal-fas ah-yer]

Raum –
Furca na alle laris Raum
[Fur-ka na ah-lee lah-ris Rah-oom]

Focalor –
En Jedan on ca Focalor
[En Yey-dan on ka Fo-kah-lor]

Vepar –
On ca Vepar Ag Na
[On ka Veh-par ag na]

Sabnock –
Tasa Sabnock on ca Lirach
[Tah-sa Sab-nok on ka lir-atch]

Shax –
Ayer Avage Shax aken
[Ah-yer ah-vah-jay Sha-ex ack-en]

Vine –
Eyesta nas Vine ca laris
[I-es-tah nah-es Vie-en ka lah-ris]

Bifrons –
Avage secore Bifrons remie tasa
[Ah-vah-jay seh-core Bif-rons ray-me tah-sa]

Uvall (also Vual or Voval) –
As ana nany on ca Uvall
[Ass an-ah nah-nee on ka Uh-val]

Haagenti –
Haaventi on ca Lirach
[Hah-ven-tee on ka lir-atch]

Crocell –
Jedan tasa Crocell on ca
[Yey-dan tah-sa Kro-kell on ka]

Furcas –
Secore on ca Furcas remie
[Seh-core on ka Fur-kas ray-me]

Balam –
Lirach tasa vefa wehl Balam
[Lir-atch tah-sa veh-fa weh-el Bah-lam]

Alloces –
Typan efna Alloces met tasa
[Tye-pan ef-nah Al-oh-sees meh-t tah-sa]

Camio (also Caim) –
Tasa on ca Caim renich
[Tah-sa on ka Kay-em ren-ich]

Murmur (also Murmus)-
Vefa mena Murmur ayer
[Veh-fa men-ah Mer-mer ah-yer]

Orobas –
Jedan tasa hoet naca Orobas
[Yey-dan tah-sa hoe-t nah-ka Oh-ro-bas

Gremory (also Gemory or Gamori) –
An tasa shi Gremory on ca
[An tah-sa she Gra-more-ee on ka]

Ose (also Voso or Oso) –
Ayer serpente Ose
[Ah-yer ser-pent-eh Oh-see]

Amy (also Avnas) –
Tu Fubin Amy secore
[Too fu-bin Aim-ee seh-core]

Oriax (also Orias) –
Lirach mena Orias Anay na
[Lir-atch men-ah Or-ee-ass ah-nay na]

Vapula (also Naphula) –
Renich secore Vapula typan
[Ren-ich seh-core Vap-uh-lah tye-pan]

Zagan –
Anay on ca secore Zagan tasa
[Ah-nay on ka seh-core Zah-gan tah-sa]

Volac (also Valak, Valac, or Valu)–
Avage Secore on ca Volac
[Ah-vah-jay seh-core on ka Vol-ak]

Andras –
Entey ama Andras anay
[En-tee ah-ma And-ras ah-nay]

Haures (also Flauros, Haurus, or Havres) –
Ganic tasa fubin Flauros
[Gahn-ich tah-sa fu-bin Fla-ree-os]

Andrealphus –
Mena Andrealphus tasa ramec ayer
[Men-ah And-reel-fus tah-sa rah-mek ah-yer]

Cimejes (also Cimeies or Kimaris) –
Ayer avage secore Cimejes
[Ah-yer ah-vah-jay seh-core Ki-meh-jes]

Amdusias (also Amdukias)–
Denyen valocur avage secore Amdusias
[Den-yen val-o-cur ah-vah-jay seh-core Am-dus-eh-ass]

Belial –
Lirach Tasa Vefa Wehl Belial
[Lir-atch tah-sa veh-fa weh-el Bee-lee-el]

Decarabia –
Hoesta noc ra Decarabia secore
[Hoe-strah nok rah Dee-kara-bee-ah seh-core]

Seere (also Sear or Seir) –
Jeden et Renich Seere tu tasa
[Yey-den et ren-ich See-er too tah-sa]

Dantalion –
Avage ayer Dantalion on ca
[Ah-vah-jay ah-yer Dan-tah-lee-on on ka]

Andromalius –
Tasa fubin Andromalius on ca
[Tah-sa fu-bin And-ro-mal-ee-us on ka]

Color your own Tarot, Part 1

Over at the OFS-Demonolatry forum, someone posted a link to an Amazon.com page that had color your own tarot deck on it. That got a few people thinking and a community craft project of coloring, or creating, your own tarot deck was started where everyone could participate and show off what they were doing. I'm going to show off what I've been working on here as well.

Yesterday, I printed off a version of the Vacchetta Tarot deck on 110lb. white card stock. I also printed a design I found on the reverse sides. You can find the Vacchetta deck here:

Now I just have to raid my wifes art supplies to get some coloring pencils! Here is what I have done so far:



I'm planning on picking a few primary colors for each of the suits and then go into more details for the major arcania.

I trimmed the cards tight to the lines but now I'm thinking I should have left a border. Not only would this look better but it would also allow me to round the corners with a corner punch. I might have to re-think what I've done so far or maybe just treat my current deck as a prototype.

Belial Amulet

I'm working through an exercise where everyday I'm meditating on a different Demon to see which one resonates with me the most. I started Thursday with Belial and had a very strong experience that inspired me.

On Friday, I spent the day making up an oleum to Belial, as well as starting on a shrine and making an amulet. I went with polymer clay for the materials for the amulet and so made a shopping trip to the craft store to buy some supplies.

I have to say that the polymer clay aisle was very intimidating to the uninitiated but after about 20 minutes of staring, that which included 5 minutes of running after my youngest child, I settled on a product. I bought 2 different colors of 'Sculpey III', Chocolate and Leaf Green. I also bought a copper metallic ink pen, some hemp cord, a gloss and a brush for the gloss.

This was my first time working with polymer clay and I had a lot of fun. I broke off about a quarter of the chocolate color and a quarter of the green and started to mold them into a disk. When I got what I wanted, I took a blunt pencil and indented the sigil of Belial on it. I fired it per the instructions on the packet of clay, then filled in the indentation with the metallic ink pen. I then brushed on the gloss, got really unhappy with the results and started again.

This is my second attempt:



I didn't put on any gloss this time.

I'm happy!

Making an Oleum, Version 1

I've already made up a base earlier and so I wanted to finish it off an make an actual oleum. Due to the up coming holiday I wanted to make oleum of Leviathan so I gathered the ingredients, tools and that made up base.



The dry materials consisted of sea salt and calamus root. I grounded the calamus but didn't bother grinding the salt - it is salt, I don't think I could get it finer.



I added everything to the double boiler and boiled it for about 15 minutes:



I then strained it through a fine mess strainer:



The mix in the strainer still looked like it had a lot of oil still in it so I put it into a clean, dry rag:



and squeezed it:



then I strained it some more:



I then added tincture of benzoin to the oleum to add to its shelf life:



Next was bottling time:



And the finished product:

Making an oleum base

I tried my hand at making some oleum for the up coming Second Rite of Leviathan. I thought it best to first make the base and then later make the specific oleum for Leviathan. I figure I won't make a lot of the oleum of Leviathan which will leave me enough base to make different oleums later.

I went with Base #1 from The Complete Book of Demonolatry since I could easily gather all the materials that I would need.

First I gathered my tools; a double boiler, since I would be heating up oil on the stove top; two 2 cup measuring jugs; a fine mess strainer; a mortar and pestle and a suribachi; some 2 dram bottles and some mason jars.



Next I gathered all the herbs I needed.



Since I was using some root I thought that it would be best to grind it up in the suribachi. It was tough work and I didn't powderize all of it, but I thought it was enough.



For the rest of the ingredience I just mashed them in the mortar. I don't think it was really necessary since they were pretty ground up to begin with.



I added them all together in a cup and mixed them up before adding them to the double boiler.



I then added a half cup of Grapeseed Oil. I went with Grapeseed since I've read it is a better oil to use, but I'm sure olive oil will work fine.



This is what it looked like when I got the herbs and the oil mixed:



I boiled it for about 15 minutes before straining the oil into a clean cup:



I didn't get a lot of oil from this so I put the strained herbs back into the double boiler and added more oil, and boiled the mixture again. I did this about 3 times in total. I have about 1 cup of once strained oleum base when I was done.

I wanted to strain it some more since there was some sediment sitting at the bottom of the cup.



I strained it a few more times, cleaning the strainer each time and then finished by straining it through cheesecloth.



When I was done, I was pretty happy with the end product. It doesn't smell oily at all but more like the herbs that I used to make it. This picture makes it look greenish but it has a more reddish tint to it.



I'll make the herb mixture for the oleums that I want and add the base to it, then boil it. I'll let you know how that goes!