Update

For anyone interested, this is what I'm up to:

I'm currently reading 'The Egyptian Book of the Dead' by E.A. Wallis Budge, I started with a print out of a PDF that I had but I discovered a hard copy at Barnes and Noble and switched to that. My interested in Kemeticism has been aroused and so I've been doing some research into the subject, I've even been putting some of my other studies on the back burner. Shame on me.

The people over at Kemet.org offer a beginners course on Kemetic Orthodoxy and so I decided to apply for that. I haven't heard back from them yet but then I only applied yesterday.

I'm taking a workshop on Working the Tree that Adrianna from OFS is running. That is making me think all kind of things about the Tree of Life, and Qabalah, that I would probably taken my sweet time in thinking. It is great being forces to think about things that you usually wouldn't. I won't get into it yet but I'll say that I'm having fun with this workshop. I've been using Qabalistic Concepts by William Gray as a guidebook. I really should be reading more of the book but I've only been using it as a source when I've had questions. It got bumped by The Book of the Dead.

On my stack of books to read is Understanding Aleister Crowley's Thoth Tarot by Lon Milo DuQuette and The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need by Joanna Woolfolk. DuQuette is fast becoming one of my most favorite occult writers and to be honest, I need help understanding Crowley. I've dreams of actually knowing more about Tarot, especially the Thoth deck, and being able to read the cards without constantly referring to a book. While I'm dreaming, I also want to be able to read a natal chart without a book too. I've lots of dreams!

Color your own Tarot, Part 1

Over at the OFS-Demonolatry forum, someone posted a link to an Amazon.com page that had color your own tarot deck on it. That got a few people thinking and a community craft project of coloring, or creating, your own tarot deck was started where everyone could participate and show off what they were doing. I'm going to show off what I've been working on here as well.

Yesterday, I printed off a version of the Vacchetta Tarot deck on 110lb. white card stock. I also printed a design I found on the reverse sides. You can find the Vacchetta deck here:

Now I just have to raid my wifes art supplies to get some coloring pencils! Here is what I have done so far:



I'm planning on picking a few primary colors for each of the suits and then go into more details for the major arcania.

I trimmed the cards tight to the lines but now I'm thinking I should have left a border. Not only would this look better but it would also allow me to round the corners with a corner punch. I might have to re-think what I've done so far or maybe just treat my current deck as a prototype.

A Demon talking through the tarot?

Ever since I started getting interested in Demonolatry, every time I do a tarot reading for myself the cards tell me that there is a 'spiritual advisor' or 'advisor' who can help me grow spiritually and creatively. Admittedly, I've only done two personal readings in the last 2 weeks but it has been enough to get me wondering who or what the cards are talking about.

Last night while I was meditating, I was visualizing that I was floating aimlessly in the black void. It wasn't long before I 'saw' a black figure. This figure didn't seem to be of my own creation but I was more concerned at the time that I could even see a black figure on a black background. This figure was gesturing for me to follow it, so I did. It 'flew' off so I followed it but eventually it just faded and disappeared. I was a little weirded out by it. Hopefully I can get more answers soon.

I feel like there is an entity that is trying to contact me, I don't know if this is an external or internal entity, but I'm not making much out of it at the moment. I'm trying to be receptive and open-minded but I'm not jumping to conclusions. I'm not going to be so egotistical to say that there is a Demon who has taken an interest in me and is trying to make contact but I'm going to be a little egotistical and not rule it out!

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I'm back

It has been a good few months since I've been on here, in fact I've all but forgotten about this little blog of mine. I'm kind of embarrassed by that. It feels like a validation of my tendency to quit.

Regardless, I'm back!

I've been studying Demonolatry a lot lately and it is speaking to me. I mean really speaking to me. I've found a site called OFS Demonolatry and it has been educational. After doing a few google searches, I can't find anything that matches it in terms of material.

Diane Vera's site about Theistic Satanism has also been a huge resource to me in the last few weeks. There has a lot of satanic philosophy which I've found enlightening and thought provoking.

Since my interest is back, I've bought a tarot deck last week. Namely the Thoth deck. This is my first time working with the tarot and I'm loving it. I can't believe I've not picked up a deck years ago. It is maddening that I've always know about it just choose to ignore it. I've been getting some good insights and I'm picking it easily. I also bought Aleister Crowley's Book of Thoth to go with it but it is a bit to esoteric for me. I'm still glad I bought it though since it goes delve deep in the the symbology of the cards. I ended up buying 'The Tarot Handbook' to get the meanings I've been looking for and I'm happy with it. Other books were suggested to me but the local bookstore didn't carry them and I was impatient.